Balanced Action

Why hello blog, it's been a while. Let's just jump right into it shall we? The last few months have been the most self-reflective, self-healing, self-growing time that I have probably ever had in my life ever. I am in such a different place now, and am such a different person then I was back in february. It's insane the amount of change that can happen in such a short period of time. While I recognize, appreciate and am so grateful for all of these growths and changes, I somehow still find myself falling into old mental patterns. I've been filling my days up, my months really, with all different activities. Great activities, healthy, fun, funny, yoga, meditation, love, laugh, life activities. I've been putting myself back into the world of socialization and pushing through my fears of interacting with new people. It's been awesome, it really has been, but then I wake up at 7am on a day like today, unable to sleep, finding myself feeling lost,depressed,angry, and confused. I find myself having stopped doing all of the work I was doing to heal and further myself, and find myself consumed with my surroundings and I begin to wonder if all of these activities are just distractions from dealing with my own life. How does one find the balance between the two? Where does one get the energy to be able to do both?